Living in the Moment

I have a lot of things to say. Unfortunately, I forget most of them because I never write it down and therefore, don’t think about it again. So I’ve decided that a blog would be a good idea, (rather than writing on paper) because it’s faster and somewhat more motivating. There’s something about being drawn to technology these days (but don’t get me wrong, I love reading a good old paperback book).

I think I spend a lot of time looking forward to the moment my head hits the pillow at night, or the weekend when I might get to sleep in a bit. Sure, everyone enjoys these moments, but are we spending too much of our day just waiting for it to end? What a waste of time! It’s almost pointless. I need to look at each and every day as a blessing from God that I get to spend it learning and growing. Netflix and naps are not what we should strive for in life…although it’s great every now and again (or even more). I’m praying God will help me live in the now and appreciate every second I have getting to do what I love. Each day that I just “go through the motions” is a day wasted. One awesome thing I get to do every day is make music. But some days I just play the notes of the page. I don’t actually play musically and enjoy this incredible thing I am blessed to be able to do. My best friend reminded me that I get to do what I love every day, and that I should be excited and joyful for the experience. But I don't always take it for granted. There are days when I get in my car after class, and just praise God for such a blessing. I literally shout in my car and exclaim my passion to God. Several times a week I will just sit in awe of music and just think "I freaking love band." Through this I try to praise God. He created music, and boy am I thankful for it.

I also love to write. I was almost an English major. I guess I love music even more. The past couple days I’ve been wanting to write down feelings I had, or memories of a sweet moment. I wanted to express how it feels to hit the cold water in a pool on a hot summers day, how the chlorine smells and makes your clothes and hair smell like it too, and how your fingers become wrinkly after several hours of fun. I want to talk about Grandma Billie’s muffins and Grandma Sallie’s long talks about God. I want to express the feeling of walking through Granny’s field and watering the animals. I want to explain how the water sounded as it hit the trough. I want to tell you how it smelled when she hugged me and how she made my favorite meals every visit. I want to express how it feels to be huddled up in a blanket with a book and coffee while it rains, and I want to show the smell of the outside when it’s over. I want to show you the colors of the sunset God created (but probably not the sunrise because I’ll still be asleep). I realized today that, somehow, this can be done through music. The art of this is trying to take all of these moments, and turn it into sound. How do you take a feeling, a taste, a smell, or a moment and turn it into sound? I don’t know yet, but it makes me excited to learn more about how music works. Maybe one day you’ll be playing a piece of music composed by Bonnie Bearden.